It has come to my attention that an individual who seems to think I have it out for them has erroneously become convinced that this blog entry is all about them. As with most things in my blog, it’s actually about me.  It’s about the fact that people seem to think I’m out to get them when I’m just going about my life and not even thinking about them.  It’s, ironically, about the reality that I can post something about myself and people will assume it’s about them.  Very interesting .  Anyway, to the person who thought this was about them… I don’t have enough time in my day to give you the attention you seem to think I’m investing in you.  It’s nothing personal.  I wish you well.  Please get help.

I’ve decided I should start a website where people can hire me to figure out what mental illness someone on their board or in their ministry is most likely struggling with and then poke them in whatever way is going to garner the most immediate and sure reaction to usher them out the door.

I’m not sure if it falls under a spiritual gifting or is part of having such strong personal boundaries, but it seems like irl and online I often end up unintentionally playing that role. I refuse to engage with the people who need their egos stroked; I focus in on the people who want to do what they are doing under cover of night; I won’t give attention to those who are lying to get it; I won’t be baited.

Ironically, I am so very rarely upset at anyone, or annoyed, even. I will discuss and dialogue until the cows come home (much to some’s dismay I”m sure) but I refuse to argue or debate. I’m shy around people I’ve never met despite being very extroverted and friendly. And I’m really trusting. I’ve been taken in by a few people which is, in part, how I’ve come to recognize the signs. I’ve been duped by people out for their own interest or even up to no good–so I certainly don’t judge anyone who is taken in by someone I catch on to.

Mostly, though, it’s tiring. It’s hard to take the hits from people who just can’t handle that I don’t fall for it. It’s hard to be the fall guy because I subconsciously zero in on the one weakness someone has that will set them off. If I don’t respond, they go off; if I do respond, they go off. It’s got to be God! Because I sure don’t want to have this “gift”